Week Twelve: A major award!

First off, I can't believe it's been 12 weeks since I started this whole thing. Time has flown by! Everything else I've ever tried dies out after about 8 weeks. Tops. I think it just goes to show how important it is for me to attend meetings. I really think they have made a huge difference for me. I knew that my problem before was that I was always doing it alone. I never knew how great an impact a room full of strangers would have on my life. They are all becoming like my family. I know we just see each other once a week and talk about food and living our lives better, but I would so jump in front of a bus to save any of them.
Now that you all have a morbid image in your minds, I'll move on to my progress. To be honest, I think I was a little more bummed about my gain last week than I let on. I try to be totally open on this blog and not let anything hold me back, but maybe I didn't know how bummed I was until I wrote it. I was pretty bummed. I was nervous I'd never get lower than 172 pounds for the rest of my life. I was trying to convince myself that if this was it I'd be fine. Then I woke up and realized that I'm better than that and I still have a ways to go if I want to be at a healthy weight. So I picked myself up and pulled it together. I didn't quite know what to expect when I got on the scale. I don't even know what I was hoping for. Just a negative number I guess. Well, I got a negative number. 2.6 negative numbers! It just goes to show that one week is not going to kill you. A little gain is not going to ruin your whole progress. The best part is, I broke the 170 barrier! Okay, by .2 pounds but hey, 169.8 looks a whole lot smaller than 170! I am 6 pounds away from no longer being considered overweight. It is an amazing feeling.
As for my major award...I got my 25 pound charm!

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Yeah, I'm to busy to take my own photo. But mine looks exactly the same. Seriously, these little tokens and stickers are so juvenile but totally work! It is so awesome to win a prize. No, not win. Winning is by chance. I earned this! I am truly becoming the person I want to be. Not just from a weight perspective, but I am slowly learning how to control my life and really by the person I imagine myself to be. One day at a time.

My Progress:
Week one:   4.6 lost
Week two:   2.2 lost
Week three: 0.8 lost
Week four:   2.2 lost
Week five:    3.2 lost
Week six:     1.6 lost
Week seven: 2.2 lost
Week eight:  1.2 lost
Week nine:   2.0 lost
Week ten:    3.4  lost
Week eleven: 0.4 gained
Week twelve: 2.6 lost

Total: 25.6 pounds lost!!