Week Eleven: My First Gain

I didn't gain 5 pounds or anything. I gained 0.4 pounds. Emphasis on the zero. I knew my number was a little skewed last week because of my pukeyness the two days before. And may I just emphasize that I am not pregnant. When you're in your childbearing years that's the first thing people think when you throw up or even get nauseous. No, I just had a bug. So my goal was to maintain that weight loss this week and gaining 0.4 (emphasis on zero) really isn't too bad. It made me a little bummed, but now that I am two days out and have seen my own scale start to go down again I'm a little more optimistic. And...I put on some size 12 jeans today. They fit. They look good. I can breathe in them. I can walk in them too. Pretty amazing!
Here's another pretty amazing thing. I stayed after the meeting for a little Power Start session. It's for newbies to kind of teach them the program, but I stayed because Weight Watchers has just rolled out their new Weight Watchers 360 and I felt like I needed a little boost what with the gain and all. I just needed a refresher. So the session was pretty much like the one I had attended before but with a different name. We discussed routines and just like the previous class, we were asked to build a sandwich. I remembered that when I first went to that class, I wanted a sandwich on artisan bread with a lot of juicy meat, gooey cheese, creamy avocado and bacon. Bacon needs no adjective. As I built my sandwich, I noticed that I didn't care so much about the bread. And I really didn't even want meat. I just wanted a bulky, veggie sandwich with some laughing cow spread. I pretty much built a 5 point sandwich (mainly because there was avocado). The one I wanted before was about 12 points. I added bacon because I felt like I should, but if it was a real sandwich, I wouldn't have put bacon. I do like bacon, don't get me wrong. I just saw that my desires are truly becoming healthier today.
One thing I love about Christmastime is mint M&M's. I think you can buy them year-round now, but for me they're a holiday treat. I succumbed today and bought a package. I got some out for Jack, then I carefully measured out some for me. I gave myself a good sized serving. But I ate about 6 and realized I was done. Granted, I have been snacking on them throughout the day, but just a few at a time. Before, I could have sat down with the giant bag and eaten all of them in one sitting! What I'm getting at here is that I am starting to see myself making good choices without even thinking about it. Sweet things are almost too sweet. I don't need a lot to be satisfied. I'm subconsciously thinking like a skinny person I guess. It has all just kind of gradually happened. I don't feel like I'm missing out on anything. It's a really great feeling.
So even if I packed on 0.4 pounds this week, I am really on track to the change in my life I have set out to make. It is possible!!!

Progress so far:

Week one:   4.6 lost
Week two:   2.2 lost
Week three: 0.8 lost
Week four:   2.2 lost
Week five:    3.2 lost
Week six:     1.6 lost
Week seven: 2.2 lost
Week eight:  1.2 lost
Week nine:   2.0 lost
Week ten:    3.4  lost
Week eleven: 0.4 gained

total: 23 pounds lost