I had a crazy week. I tried really hard to stick to one dessert a day and have been pretty successful. However, I did go out to lunch with Corey on Friday to BJ's. BJ's is not known for their lighter fare. They are known for deep dish pizza, giant burgers, and the Pizookie. I ordered very sensibly and had a half salad and half flatbread thing. Not guilty. Then I shared a Pizookie. Ice cream on the side, awesome. But still, I ate half of it. And still didn't feel bad. It was so stinkin good. Sometimes you just need to go for it. Saturday, I drove up to Fort Worth and saw my cousin then headed to my brother-in-law's house for the night. My sister-in-law had a baby shower and the food was to die for! Her mom is an amazing cook and had made chicken and dumplings and cobbler. I loaded up on fruit and salad and had a reasonable helping of chicken and dumplings and just one serving of cobbler. There were little Dove chocolates in bowls all around the house and I only ate 4 the whole weekend. I would normally have eaten 4 the minute I walked in the door. So even though I kind of stretched it this week, I feel like I did pretty well. I didn't over-indulge but I allowed myself to have fun and not let food and points ruin my world.
On that note: I lost .8 pounds. It was a little hard to see less than a pound lost since the past two weeks have been amazing, but I have to remind myself that I am a human and I had two big weeks and my body just doesn't shed 4 pounds every week. I'm so close to my 5% lost goal that I think that's what made it a little sad. But I'll keep at it. The fact that I went out and at non-weight watcher meals and still lost weight just encourages me even more. Right now I'm on the losing weight train. But eventually, I will be a healthy weight and will just need to maintain that weight. I think that scares me even more than losing weight. I've always bobbed up and down so keeping one number seems like it is just impossible. But last week I felt like I lived a normal life but with some healthy changes that I can stick with forever. Changes like, one serving of something, eating apple slices in the car instead of cookies or other typical car munchies, drinking water and lots of it, and of course one dessert a day.
I can do this. I didn't gain weight. I lost it. I shouldn't be disappointed in that. I can't be focused on numbers. I need to focus on eating the right foods and moving more. I can and WILL do this. Even if it's .8 pounds at a time.
I've decided to post my weekly progress just so I can see it. You know, an extra motivator.
Week One: 4.6 lost
Week Two: 2.2 lost
Week Three: .8 lost
Total lost: 7.6
I can do this.
You are awesome. I am so proud of you. And I so wish we were neighbors, because there are so many conversations I would love to have with you. I promise to write a post on my blog soon with some information, perspectives, and recommended reading that I'm sure you would appreciate. But for now, let me say that after Katie was born, I lost all 53 pounds I put on plus 10 pounds I had carried since starting at BYU. In 15 months. Now I'm 8 pounds away from losing the 40 with E, and I'm hoping to lose a few more after that. All from making healthy eating choices (sadly, real exercise is not a regular part of my life right now). In the last few years, I have made big, and largely sustained changes in how I eat and I love it. Like you said in your first post, I'm in a new place. I'm still influenced by eating habits form other places, but because I do not eat like the modern American on a regular basis, I don't look, feel, or operate (in terms of health) like a modern American either. I will warn you that losing weight is not enough to make you happy: when I was skinny after having K I still had some big issues in my life that caused me some pretty serious depression. BUT don't let anyone tell you that being skinny isn't fun, because even if your life is miserable, there is something to be said for looking in the mirror and being pleasantly surprised by how awesome you look. Just you wait girly, a few months from now, you'll recognize yourself more than you ever have, and it will get easier to follow the path you are on to better health.
ReplyDeleteYOU GO!!! That is awesome! Really! And ps, As soon as I pop this baby out, I'm on that losing train with you!!!!
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ReplyDeleteVictoria: Thanks for your insight. Also, I totally understand that being skinny won't make me happy. I have Lexapro for that! :) Good to know that it's fun though!
ReplyDeleteLeash, hop on the train! And pop that baby out sooner than later so he can come to my house. Like you have full control of that or anything...
Way to go!
ReplyDeleteI love reading this! So glad you're tracking it.
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